Even though the one-year anniversary of Ethan’s death has passed, I’m still struggling. August is as tough a month as July to get through — first our anniversary, then Ava’s birthday, finally Ethan’s birthday. As always when I feel sad, I spend every spare moment looking at old pictures and videos.
These pictures were taken on our trip to the Big Island. I was pregnant. The salty air made my stomach turn. After we returned home I miscarried. I went to the doctor’s appointment alone and remember sitting in the hot car crying and calling David to tell him the news. It was our first loss.
I just finished reading your entire blog. You are a wonderful articulate writer. By you sharing your pain, you have helped me. You see my grandson Donovan passed away on June 23rd 2009. I not only struggle with this each day but I struggle with watching my daughter suffer through her tremendous pain. I see her in you.
I also seek out other people that have joined this sad club. That is how I found you.
I am starting a new weekly blog post called Tuesday’s Angel where I would like to profile a child that has passed or one that is terminally ill. If you do not mind I would like to start with Ethan. I will just say a few things about his life and post a link to your blog. If you rather I don’t I will not.
Regardless I will be thinking and praying for your family.
Julie
Thank you for your comments Julie. I’m sorry to hear about your grandson. I understand from talking to my mother how difficult the loss of your grandson must be and the challenge of coping with your own grief while wanting to help your daughter. It sounds like your blog could be helpful to others who have lost children. Thank you for offering to include Ethan. I would be pleased if you write something about him.
Peace to you and your family on this journey.
Lisa
I too am having issues dealing with multiple losses. August is a bad time for me too. http://dclark1983.wordpress.com might shed some light on it.. The entry I am speaking of is “A Date That Will Live in Infamy”… Dealing with loss is often the hardest thing to do in life…. I will have you in my prayers. I am an amazing listener if you ever need to talk.
Angel Tuesday for Ethan is posted if you would like to visit. I hope I did him justice. Thank you Lisa.
Julie
http://tinyurl.com/r9er7f