I’ve been wondering how mothers who have lost their children get through Mother’s Day. After my son was born, I used to spend Mother’s Day at the Sacramento County Fair where they handed out carnations to the moms. I loved it.
When we moved to Ohio, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor and had surgery to remove the tumor over Mother’s Day weekend. I thought that was as bad as it could get. Then my son died.
Now, I face my first Mother’s Day minus a child, but with another child due to be born that very day. So, while I grieve for one, I may be welcoming another into the world. It’s bittersweet. Although I can’t imagine ever being truly happy again on this day.
We’ll survive it loving both of our children, mourning for one and thanking God for the other. I expect it to be torturous. I expect to be knee-deep in tears tomorrow.
Thank you for writing so beautifully about Ethan, loss, and sorrow. I think of your son often. I read your blog and look at his photos and I am so moved by your ability to capture his radiance and what it’s like to grieve a child. I often find myself saying, “Exactly.”
I’ll be sending you prayers for peace and a joyful birth this week.
Loving Isabel Always, Margo
Hi Lisa,
I hope you are doing well. I just wanted to let you know that you have been on my mind a lot lately. I hope you all are celebrating the new addition to your family. I’m keeping you in my prayers 🙂 I love you.
Traci
Traci, it’s good to hear from you. We will talk soon. The baby and Ava have been keeping me very busy. Stay strong. I miss and love you.
Your friend from flickr In Memory Of Our Lost Children.
God Bless You.
Lisa, my heart goes out to you for all you have had to bear!
I couldn’t help but notice Ethan’s birthday… it is the same exact day that my son died. Life sure is strange!
Thank you for writing Nancy and I’m sorry about your loss. It’s nice, though, that we can share the lives of our children on the Flickr site. What a strange coincidence about the dates.