I haven’t taken many pictures the past year. Lately, though, I’ve picked up the camera again. I documented Ethan’s moods and joys throughout his life. It’s important to me to do the same for the girls. We are very grateful to have the photographs of Ethan now. Oddly enough, in the few days prior to [...]
Archive for July, 2009
My Beautiful Girls
Posted in Ethan, Kids, tagged bereavement, child loss, daughters, death of child, ethan forster, funeral, grief, mourning, sadness, sibling, sorrow on July 31, 2009 | 1 Comment »
The Boy Who Never Became a Man
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, grief, mourning, mulan, sadness, sorrow on July 29, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Mulan – i’ll make a man out of you Today Ava listened to the Disney CD with this song. It was one of Ethan’s favorites. He’d wave his arms around wildly, jump and make karate or sword fighter moves, and then at the top of his lungs sing, “With all the force of a great [...]
Where’s Your Third?
Posted in Ethan, tagged balloon, bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, hike, mourning, sadness, sorrow on July 28, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
For the one-year anniversary of Ethan’s death we hiked to the top of Spencer Butte. It’s one of the highest points in the area. From the top you can see the valley and surrounding mountains. I bought balloons so we could write notes to Ethan, attach them, and release the balloons. David carried Summer. I [...]
Hug the Ones You Love Day
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, grief, hug, memorial, mourning, sadness, sorrow, tribute on July 26, 2009 | 1 Comment »
We have been given much support over the past year from friends, family, and strangers. I wanted to let everyone know how much our family has appreciated that support. Coping with Ethan’s death would have been much more difficult without it. So, for the one-year anniversary of the death of Ethan and his grandfather John [...]
Spiritual Evolution
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, grief, mourning, pain, sadness, shevach lambert, sorrow, spiritual on July 26, 2009 | 1 Comment »
How strange timing can be. The newspaper ran an article about how pain can bring spiritual evolution. It was written by Shevach Lambert, a parent who had lost a child. I have to use the author’s words because I can’t say it better. “The sorrow and pain which I assume to be so intensely private [...]
An Everyday Sorrow
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, dream, ethan forster, grief, mourning, pain, sadness, sorrow on July 26, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t had many dreams of Ethan, but recently I dreamed I was walking outside. Ethan walked beside me. He was taller, his face more mature as it would have been if he had lived. I saw a boy about to turn eight rather than the boy I will remember who will always be three [...]
Remembering a Week of Lasts
Posted in Ethan, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, grief, mourning, sadness, sorrow on July 23, 2009 | 2 Comments »
One year ago, Ethan and I wrestled for the last time. He giggled and laughed as we rolled around on the grass. We had our last dinner together. I can’t remember what we ate. I took my last pictures of him. He took a shower. I inspected his body for any problems. He’d had a [...]
The Living Years
Posted in Ethan, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, grief, living years, mike and the mechanics, mourning, pain, sorrow on July 21, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Mike and the mechanics. Living years LIVE PERFORMANCE As the one year anniversary of Ethan’s death approaches, I have been relatively calm. David, on the other hand, is suffering tremendously. He worries constantly about us and almost feels as if it is inevitable that the girls and I will die. He is extremely aware of [...]
Thank you Janette Oke
Posted in Ethan, tagged anger, bereavement, child loss, death of child, ethan forster, grief, janette oke, pain, sorrow, spencer butte on July 21, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I have so little time to write, but my mind is constantly focused on Ethan, especially now. I last saw my son on July 24 last year. For days I’ve been pouring through photo albums and video clips. On the 26th we plan to hike to Spencer Butte and release balloons. Throughout the year as [...]
Tattoo Tribute to Ethan
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bereavement, child loss, death of child, epic electric, ethan forster, grief, memorial, mourning, sorrow, tattoo on July 17, 2009 | 1 Comment »
I’ve wanted a tattoo since I was a teenager. After Ethan died, I decided to get one that incorporated some of his loves — warriors, swords — but also symbolized the flight of his spirit. So, I wanted a bird in the image. Coincidentally, the father of one of Ava’s classmates is a tattoo artist. [...]
